I’m twitchy, I’m unfocused, I’m walking from room to room not really knowing what it is I’m supposed to be doing.
It’s my kids first day at school for the New Year, and I’m excited and anxious for them. I would like to be more grounded, to be calmer, to be an ‘old-hand’ at this, but I’m not. It is 10 years since I started the first school run, and I’m just as nervous on every ‘First Day’ since.
I just want it to go well.
I just want my kids to come in the door this afternoon – who am I kidding? – I’ll be picking them up. So, I want them to get into the car after school and be Happy. That’s what I’m all about. Life is so much more enjoyable, so full, so ripe for learning when you are Happy – and I want that for my kids.
I’m very aware that I can’t do anything about it, and I’m very aware that it’ll not stay like that for the entirety of 2015, I just want the first day to go well.
Note to you who are making the run for the first time ever … it is never always perfect. Some years, for one of my children, it’s gone well this first day, and for the others not so much. New teachers, new classrooms, a different configuration of friends and routines – It’s a little bit of a minefield.
The good thing is that experience has taught me a couple of things:
- It’ll be ok
- I’ve done a good job to get them here
- Whatever happens is just a part of their learning journey
- … and it is a part of my journey to help them through it when/if it goes a little pear-shaped today.
PS: The first thing I’m doing after the school drop-off? Treating myself to a coffee at a café, and giving myself time to breathe.