I’m feeling a bit lost this winter.
This is the first year in a long time that I haven’t had a focus. For the last 9 years I have either been focusing on a sporting event that needed training for, or I was practicing, and rehearsing for a show, or I was doing both at the same time.
Every winter since I have lived in the South Island, I have gone through the winter with a purpose and something to look forward to.
This year, I’ve taken a break from the big events, and a break from shows – maybe I needed to so I don’t burn myself out. So, maybe some would see this as a good thing.
For me though, I’m floundering. I’m a bit off, I’m a bit bored, I’m less organised than I usually am, and jumping from one thing to the next without much rhyme or reason, and without any good habits forming.
And comsidering what I know about my personality, I should have figured this out well before now!
One thing that I advocate is children acting truly in sync with their personality, and being authentic, and relaxed in themselves and their surroundings.
So, knowing this about children who have the same kind of personality to me, means I should have realised that the reason I’ve felt off, is that I’ve been acting, and following paths that don’t resonate naturally with ME.
Tonight I’m sitting in enforced silence, watching my oldest two kids at their karate training, and I’m working. Ticking things off my list (the first I’ve written in over a month ) and feeling energised, excited by my client work, excited by my writing, and my choreography. I’m having a really positive and rewarding couple of hours achieving things that fuel me, and planning goals for my next 6 months.
We encourage our children to be focused on goals, and push them to achieve their goals, but how often do we refocus and look at our OWN goals?
We need our own goals too, and being unfocused and flaky in future ventures affects our energy, and how we interact with positivity in everything we do, including parenting.
Come up with some 3 month, and 6 month goals for yourself this week.